Holding on Tight in 2013

It's a new year.  And like every year, I think about what I should have done in the year past and what I am going to do better or more often on this 2013 palette.  This year it is all laid before me without even a thought.  I of course am going to fight off the holidays pounds by meeting back up with my exercise self tomorrow morning.  I will sadly look at the mess I've made the past weeks and hope that some slight change happens quickly enough to reward my early efforts and keep the enthusiasm going.  But beyond the hope of getting into my jeans without the tugging and subsequent squattings, my life is about to make some very big changes and having said yes to it all, I am simply holding on tight.  This year I will change my address, my job and likely career, my home town, my children's schools, my cat's home, my tax status, my name...my life.

It is the most wonderful thing.  My family of four is joining a family of three..add two cats.  The hardest parts are behind us; sharing the news with all who might see challenges before beauty.  The shared home is under construction to create a place we can all call home.  We look at his furniture and at mine and figure out where things will fit.  We have even figured out how to top the Christmas tree with both adornments.  The children have found their way around one another and it feels as though everyone can see that it will all be ok..and it will even be better than ok.  It will be a place of laughter and mess ups and pick ups.  But I think, what I hope, everyone will see is that having more people to love and to be loved, supported, and celebrated by can only make our worlds majorly brighter.

So, if someone mentions my leaving, or asks who will take over my job, or talks of my selling my beautiful old home, they will for sure see me well up.  I have grown up here...not from childhood, but in my adulthood.  I have become the woman someone else is willing to change it all for too.

Hold on tight..here comes 2013!!